Thursday, 26 March 2015

No Reason for a Hypothesis


Hypothetically
I have no excuse for
Being in love with you.
In this hypothesis
Eyes have met
And sparked many a moments
Conversations have
Transgressed intimacies.
If this was
Indeed a hypothesis,
Then perhaps you’d feel the same
Longing, needing, wanting
Instead, it is all about
Deterring, overwhelming, without.

Thursday, 11 July 2013

Post Midnight Cat Calls

Unexpectedly so
Today the moon turned black.
Neighbourhood cats howled
To mate
And you slept soundly through it.

I've spent the past half hour
Un-asleep and un-awake
The ticking of the clock
In the next room
Rhymes with your breathe
woosh tick woosh tock.

I wished for it to rain
I wished for a storm.
I wished for something to wash down
This disillusionment
That was becoming me.

And yet
As my eyelids fell and met shore
As the sounds died
And so did everything else around me.
I wished for peaceful slumber
An unexpected
Never ending one.

Saturday, 29 December 2012

RIP '23 year old paramedic'

Dear Mr. President's son and every other misogynist patriarchs (men, women & everyone in between)

Last night I had an epiphany
I figured what dented-painted means
I realised how dented-painted I am
Considering I woke up screaming from a nightmare
Bawling. Disgusted. Scared.
As I walk down my locality
Familiar shops
I get heckled by men 
And even though my brother is with me
All I can remember of the dream
Is the unwanted touch, my screams
And the look of desperation on my brother's face.

I am dented-painted.
I was dented as a child
As are a lot of women I know.
And some men too.
I have painted my thoughts
I have painted my memories
I have painted my body
I have painted my society
And yet with an overdose on the Delhi rape case
I wake up in the middle of the night
Wanting to rip my breast away
From my body
So that there will be no more denting.

I am dented painted.
So is my best friend, my lover
My colleague, my teacher
My therapist, my boss
My favourite author, the childhood friend
My sister, my sister-in-law
We are all dented.
Used. Banged. Damaged. Goods.
Most probably really young
When we were not 'soliciting'
As you would like to believe.

I am dented-painted,
Painted, because
The only reason I bravely walk the streets
Of any city I've lived in
Is because I believe what worst can happen
Has happened.
I'm dented yet again though
Because while I'm battling
My post nightmare insomnia
I stay awake to know that
Our 23 year old paramedic rape victim
Doesn't have it in her anymore to
Stay Alive.
RIP!

Friday, 21 December 2012

apocalypse

















I live with a death wish
Today.
The world hasn't ended
And I realise I was looking forward for it to.
I live with blood-thirst
Today.
The stench of rusting iron
Rising in me wields daggers.
I desire apocalypse
Today.
I walk to it if it doesn't come my way.
Slit my throat, slit my wrist, bleed.
I cry murder
Today.
Even though murder
Wouldn't quench my need for justice.
I see my sisters rise
Today.
But I see innumerable
Hands ready to pull her down, shut her up.
I want justice
Today.
Slay my rapist, slay them who quieten me,
Slay my murderer, slay me for remaining alive.

Thursday, 6 September 2012

Dancee















You swept me off my feet
Danced with me
And beckoned me to
Dream a little dream
Of you.


Saturday, 11 August 2012

Breathe









Fingers crave
Arms ache
Wanting
To hold
To touch
To reach out
And melt into you.

While your house breathes louder
And I hold my breathe
At the sight of you!

Tuesday, 31 July 2012

A remedy for Anger










What's a remedy for anger
Anger that leaves you numb
Twists
Like a knife deeply wedged
In your gut.
Anger that leaves you impotent
Anger that torments you
With lust for blood
With red dreams of
Slit throats spurting.
Anger at lives
Futile
For it ends
At the hands of your helplessness.
Anger for the those
Who don't care enough
Who sleepwalk through existence.

This knife I twist further
To quench my blood thirst.